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‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾one☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙
ODE TO:
𝐚𝐧 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐚𝐭:
𝙙𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙩 !*
*𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐬, 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟.
𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨, 𝐢 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠
𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐮
𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐤𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐀𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐨
𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐩𝐚𝐥𝐦 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐢𝐬𝐭
𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐞’𝐬 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞
𝐚𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
𝐀𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐨 𝐮𝐧𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐬
𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐰𝐨 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐞: 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞,
𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚𝐟𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞, 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐡𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦
𝐎𝐡, 𝐈𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐃𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐳𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
𝐎𝐡, 𝐌𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐂𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐂𝐮𝐥𝐭
𝐎𝐡 𝐀𝐧𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐨, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐢𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
𝐛𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠
𝐖𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐲𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧,
𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟
𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐞𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐦𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐬.
FALSE HEAT
It doesn’t warm like the sun,
but cool toned screen light
blooming through quiet dark is
a burning gaze far less judgmental.
It’s a courtesy much appreciated during
the hours of the day that the morning
is too prideful to touch,
during the times I gamble
on the most unreliable human connection
the world wide web can conjure. The times
I attempt a digital dine-and-dash:
feasting upon the bounties of validation
without paying for it in commitment.
There’s a one-in-eight chance you’ll
encounter someone on ChatRoulette
baring all the shortcomings of their humanity
like the glistening teeth of a bear.
I start all my liaisons divulging that I’m a
freshly poured puddle of milk with
honey for hair, and raspberry jam for a mouth
and a marshmallow body ready for teeth
Not even a person here,
just a smorgasbord of the most desirable
ways to overflow.
My latest partner’s finished
swallowing me whole.
Another flawless supper.
Neither of us consider the coupling
for too long before we start again,
lest we’re to consider the implications
of us returning to this hedonic meal
so many times over.
i asked a herd of omegle strangers a single question before disconnecting: "what are you looking for?"
the following is composed from fragments of their answers.
ₛₕₒw ₘₑ.
ᵢ’ₘ ₕₑᵣₑ fₒᵣ ₐₙyₜₕᵢₙg.
ₒₕ bₒy. ₙₒₜ yₒᵤ.
Yₒᵤᵣ bᵢg dᵢcₖ.
Yₒᵤᵣ ₚᵤₛₛy.
ₐₗₗ ₜₕₑy wₐₙₜ ᵢₛ ₚᵤₛₛy.
Wₕₐₜ ₐbₒᵤₜ yₒᵤ?
Dₐₘₙ. ₕₐᵥₑ ₐ ₗᵢₜₜₗₑ fᵤₙ.
ₚₑₒₚₗₑ dₒₙ’ₜ gᵢᵥₑ ₜwₒ ₛₕᵢₜₛ ₐbₒᵤₜ ₕₒw ₛₒₘₑbₒdy ₐcₜₛ ₗᵢₖₑ yₒᵤ ₐᵣₑ ₜₕᵢₙₖᵢₙg.
ₘᵢddₗₑ ₐgₑd ₘₑₙ ₕₐᵥₑ ₙₒ ₛₒcᵢₐₗ ₛₖᵢₗₗₛ Wₕₑₙ ₜₕₑy ₐᵣₑ ₕₒᵣₙy.
Yₒᵤ ᵣₑₐₗ?
Wₑₗₗ, ᵢₜ dₒₙ'ₜ ₘₐₜₜₑᵣ.
ᵢₜ'ₛ cₒₘₚₗᵢcₐₜₑd. ₛₐₘₑ ₐₛ yₒᵤ.
ₐᵣₑ yₒᵤ ₜₕₒᵤgₕ?
Wₕₐₜ’ₛ ₜₕₑ ᵣᵢgₕₜ ₐₙₛwₑᵣ?
ᵢ dₒₙ’ₜ ₖₙₒw, ₜₒ bₑ ₕₒₙₑₛₜ.
ₙₒₜₕᵢₙg. ₚᵣₒbₐbₗy? ₐₙyₜₕᵢₙg.
ᵢₜ wᵢₗₗ dₑₚₑₙd ₒₙ ₜₕₑ ₚₑᵣₛₒₙ ᵢ cₒₙₙₑcₜ wᵢₜₕ.
ₘₒₛₜ ₚₑₒₚₗₑ ₒₙₗy cₒₘₑ ₕₑᵣₑ ₜₒ ₛₑₑ
ₜₕₑ ₛₐₘₑ ₜₕᵢₙg yₒᵤ'ᵣₑ ₗₒₒₖᵢₙg fₒᵣ.
ᵢₙfₒᵣₘₐₜᵢₒₙ ₒₙ ₕₒw ₜₕₑ wₒᵣₗd wₒᵣₖₛ.
ₛₜᵣₐₙgₑᵣₛ ₘₑₑₜᵢₙg ₛₜᵣₐₙgₑᵣₛ.
ᵣₑₗₐₜᵢₒₙₛₕᵢₚ ₒᵣ fᵣᵢₑₙdₛₕᵢₚ.
Fᵤₙ ₐₙd ₕₐₚₚᵢₙₑₛₛ.
ₛₒₘₑₒₙₑ.
ₐₙyₜₕᵢₙg.
ₐₙd ₘₐybₑ ₘₒᵣₑ.
ₐₙd ₙₒₜₕᵢₙg ₑₗₛₑ.
